Bumpdate: 6 Weeks

So, we've now settled in at a "comfortable"...6 weeks and 3 days. That's not to say that the last 2 weeks haven't been filled with much anxiety. Being that this is my first pregnancy, I have no idea what is normal. I find myself asking my Mom and Dr. Google way too many questions (Note to self: Mom is a better resource. Dr. Google will convince me I have cancer and I'm dying and my baby is a dinosaur). Since the very very early days, I've had lots of nausea, fatigue, and abdominal pains/stretching. To be completely honest, it's been completely terrible. Why did nobody tell me how horrible the first trimester is? I've told T multiple times through this pregnancy already that we are never ever having another baby and we are going to just have to stop at one and adopt the rest because I can't deal with this morning night all day sickness. I mean, I've heard morning sickness was bad...but I didn't imagine it would be this bad. I didn't imagine that I'd spend my days in bed, subsisting on a diet of saltine crackers and gatorade. The first week after I found out, the anxieties that I'd been struggling with for months and months seemed to disappear....well, I'm a super emotional wreck now and all I can seem to do is worry about the baby. I'm trying to remember that God has a plan for whatever happens, and that he and my loved ones will be with me every step of the way...but this whole pregnancy thing is a giant leap of faith. I didn't get what pregnancy and being "with child" really meant during the whole trying to conceive process. Honestly, I don't think I really realized just how much this baby was going to change our lives.

I'd been waiting to do a "bumpdate" until we saw Baby P on the ultrasound. Even though I believe deep down in my heart that Baby P IS a baby...it can still be difficult to allow myself to love the life inside of me, when all is not certain that everything will be okay. After a midafternoon ER visit because we thought the pregnancy might be ectopic and an early dating ultrasound at the OB- we now know that there is a baby, he/she measures right on track, and baby has firmly implanted itself into my uterus. So, I'm going to go ahead and cautiously begin these updates. I don't want to look back in regret that I didn't record these early days with the baby.

How far along: 6 weeks

Size of baby: A lentil? (which is quite scary since last time I ate lentils, I had an anaphylactic reaction and ended up in the ER...so saying that Baby P is the size of a sweet pea sounds so much...sweeter!)

Sleep: Very very little. While I am nauseated most of the day, I spend the night getting up to pee and throw up--maybe it should be called Night Sickness. Add in the fact that our puppy is still being trained and likes to bark in the night and that the movers have come to get our stuff so we are sleeping on air mattresses- and you have one VERY tired preggo.

Symptoms: Nausea. Tired- ALL THE TIME...I could sleep all day (if I had a real bed, that is). Crying for no good reason. Crying for any good reason. Aches and pains everywhere....and I just hear that it's just going to get worse and that makes me cry some more.

Cravings: Salty things, especially chips! Sweet things hold no appeal at all to me (which is strange for this sweet tooth!)- except those frosted sprinkle cookies that they sell in the bakery at WalMart- those are an exception. I eat way too many a day. Other than that- no sweets, not even cupcakes. The thought of cupcakes slightly nauseates me....and that just seems wrong for this sparkly cupcake princess.

Gender: Too early to find out! But, T and I both have this strong feeling that Baby P is a boy. 

Maternity clothes: Some- mostly because they are so much more comfortable with all of this bloating (I know that it's not the baby yet, and it's just bloating). The bloating never really went away after recovery before I got pregnant, so it can be very uncomfortable. At least now I don't feel like I have to hide my belly and the bloat...I'm pregnant and proud! :) I already didn't have any jeans that fit- so adding a belly band and maternity jeans to the mix seemed like a good idea.

Miss anything?: My heating pads! I'm so used to using them to fight the nausea that I've fought for months- I'm sad to lose them. Oh, and Advil, Benadryl, Sudafed, and Ativan. This walking pharmacy might lose it over the next nine months.

Best moment this week: Seeing Baby P on the ultrasound! I mean, Baby P wasn't really visible (it was at 5 weeks 5 days), but this early, you wouldn't expect him to be. :)

Looking forward to: Our follow up OB appointment this Thursday (right before we move) to see how Baby P is growing and if we can *fingers crossed* see a heartbeat!